Void

I see the world around me.
People laughing , people talking , young couples, old people , kids with rosy cheeks of excitement , babies sleeping peacefully , people crying . You meet new people everyday and sometimes you lose people...and you don't even realize it until it happens .

Do we take life so much for granted?

We go on living . We go on hurting , causing pain and heart break to those we say are important to us . We run everyday to earn that money we don't really need to be happy . We wake up everyday with a heavy heart and go back to work to the same evil boses , deadlines and projects .

It is really a mad , mad world .

Amidst all this chaos and race there are some thoughts , some people that bring comfort to your life . I think of those cold , winter afternoons in JNU , reading books in the garden and not knowing when I'd fall asleep , eating oranges , bougainvillas , sunflowers , friends , cycling , festivals,theatre...life was so simple and uncomplicated then.

And now I sit here by the window and look outside . I see the moon shining so brightly . It makes me happy . It is such a beautiful sight . I wonder how life would be had I not done this or had I done this at that time in my life....Is there really a destiny ? Or do we make our choices and blame destiny for what we couldn't do ?

I want to fill my life with meaning . I want to feel happy and uncomplicated again. I want peace and healing .

Sometimes you meet these extraordinary people who take you into another world and make you believe that anything is possible . Someone who see you..the real YOU despite all your weaknesses and complications . Someone who makes you believe in miracles , in the power of love...

And then a day comes...when you sit here alone by the window and post this on your blog .
A day when you wonder what is true and what is not ?

A little voice in me tells me to let go...slowly. It whispers to me and says, ' Zaibi...go to sleep . You are not alone .I am always with you. '

PS:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yo49REpQCwA - Coldplay at their best...again.